I gotta’ get get gotta’ gotta’ get home.

After an exhausting week of studying, packing, moving, and stressing I am finally able to go home. Yeah sure it’s just for a day, and yeah, it’s not much, but I am honestly so thankful that I am able to even get that chance. They say the grass is always greener on the other side, and I thought I’d get over it by jumping back from side to side again and again until they both become my side. But life doesn’t work that way, instead I’ve come to realize that you should enjoy the side you are on, because the guy across the way wishes he was you. 

2 weeks ago  /  0 notes

And I’m back..

Luckily, I have a huge problem with procrastination that might just be my way of relaxing…

Anyway something that has been crossing my mind lately…

before I left for college, Mrs. Bledsoe, probably one of the most influential people in my life and definitely one of the greatest teachers ever to mold young minds, gave me a picture that said “Attitude is everything, life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.” in other words “We might not be able to control every situation in life we have been dealt, but we can control how we respond to them”

Recently I have been quoting that picture to all of my friends who freak out about finals, who are whining about current life issues, and who are trying to keep a stable mind in this weird transitional period of life we call college-summer break. And it’s got me thinking, what does it really mean to react well? And I’ve come to this conclusion: This is the part way God wants us to live. 

Realizing that there are things in life beyond our control helps us give sovereignty to God. Once we do that, we are able to look at life through eyes that are humble and grateful. Someone with this perspective takes on life with a positive attitude, and is excited to wake up each morning and face the day. They see each moment as an opportunity to glorify God by living for Him. It’s something I wish I did more, and something I hope to do every second of my life. 

So the question still stands, how are you spending that 90%?  Instead of worrying about the small 10%, try focusing on the larger, more controllable portion, and always PTL.  

2 weeks ago  /  0 notes

No rest for the wicked…

I’M DONE WITH FINALS!! WOOHOOOO!! And yet, I still have so much to do!! 

-laundry

-pack up stuff in dorm

-move to summer apartment (shout out to mary and molly who are my saviors)

-organize stuff for CFW

-Confirm airport transporation

-pack up stuff for MN

-Eat

-say goodbye to floor-mates

-relax?

Why do I do this to myself? I realize I hate sitting still, even if I need it, I can’t. It’s probably the reason I can never fall asleep. I think I just get so worked up over all the stuff there is to do that every second I sit still is a second I think I’m wasting. Problem is there will always be more stuff to do, and my overly efficiency-orientated thinking process and I need to learn to take a chill. Wish me luck. P.s. If you are reading this  and bored and it is Wednesday, May 16, please come help me move? Thanks!! 

2 weeks ago  /  0 notes

Mommy

To all the mothers of the world, hope your day is filled with wonderful breakfasts in bed, homemade gifts, fancy dinners, and appreciation for all the things you do, even though one day isn’t enough to appreciate all that you do.

This is my mom.  She can frequently be seen in this position, driving hastily (and often aggressively) to the nearest store, basketball practice, taekwondo practice, piano lesson, middle school, mall, grandma’s house, or anywhere else that her overly demanding and constantly under-appreciative children demand her to go. She is by far the most outspoken, motivated, organized, generous, and honest person I have ever met in my life. Sometimes we butt heads, we fight, we argue, but all parents/kids do. She makes my life better by challenging me to strive for the best and by working hard to help me along the way. She has taught me so much on what it means to chase something you want, and that my dreams are worth the effort. She knows how to make me laugh until I cry, how to shut me up (which is hard to do), and how to continually amaze me with her character and love. I love you, mom, for making me the young man I am today. 

I also have another mom. She lives across the ocean. I have never met her, and don’t know that much about her. In fact we’ve only interacted for a very short time, but that interaction changed my life. Although I may not know what she looks like, what her voice sounds like, or what her embrace feels like, I know that like my mom here, she is a strong and generous woman who wants the best for me. So even if I don’t know anything else about her, I know that she gave me life, she gave me a chance for a better life, and that her sacrifice and love will continually amaze me. I love you mom, for making me the young man I am today. 엄마 사랑해요. 

so go out there and thank your mom, not just today, but everyday for the rest of your life, honor thy mother, and love the LORD your God with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength, because it was by His power, grace, and love, did He bless us with such incredible women. 

3 weeks ago  /  1 note

Flip Flopping, the Why?, and Evangelism.

Wow it has been a while since I tumbled. Sorry about my absence, I just haven’t really had time to sit down and write out my thoughts. Actually that’s a lie, I have had plenty of time, but I lacked motivation. I’ve been being pretty lazy lately, between Netflix, Xbox, Facebook, and Youtube, I’d say I’ve pretty much filled my life with electronic outlets. On the flip side I have become much more involved in student organizations in the last few months as well. So I guess I naturally seek balance, which I suppose is a good thing, however this rotating between extremes is pretty tiring. I realize I am a walking contradiction. I crave new experiences yet hate change, I want consistency, yet get bored easily. I pride myself on making huge networks but value a small close group of friends.  It’s been like this for a while now, jumping from side to side. 

I’m also really starting to wonder about God’s purpose for me. What am I supposed to do? Why was I created? Why… Faith is what keeps us content with not knowing the answer. Only God knows why. We can guess, we can try and answer, but we end up saying “what” or “how”. God gave us those answers already, but Why, that’s a whole other story. So I guess I need to focus on HOW i’m doing WHAT i’m doing, and leave WHY i’m doing it to God.

Final thing, I have started being more intentional, more evangelistic, and I actually feel like I’m doing okay. I’ve honestly had very little training, and I’m not even sure if what I’m doing is the “right” way, but I end each conversation with excitement and hope. I love the feeling of sharing the Gospel, my Testimony, and helping others come to understand what this whole “God” is about. I hope I can continue to find opportunities to do that and hopefully do it right. 

3 weeks ago  /  1 note